I want to draw attention to this topic because I feel like it's a subject that often just gets brushed under the carpet. It's going to take eating allot of humble pie on my part, but I know I owe my readers and family and friends an explanation as to what has been driving me the past few months. This does link in with the devils tool box series brilliantly so I will give the bottom line and some tips in the next post but for this post, I'm just going to draw from experience here. I am going to talk about this from a faith viewpoint, because for me that is how I fell into this trap, but I know that principles and tactics can relate to a wide range of situations, not just end time obsession/ rapture fever.
My Story - How I got Caught by the Devils Tools
I was privileged enough to attend a Christian school in my early teens. It was there that I got my first taste for this thing called "end times prophecy" I used to read allot in school, I started to read books about end times prophecy because someone in school had introduced me to the left behind books by Tim Lahey and I wanted to know how much of the books were actually based on truth. Back then I did one thing differently that really did make the difference, I checked everything that claimed to be truth against the bible, if it didn't fit then I threw it out and moved on. I got over that phase pretty quickly and didn't pick up end times material again until a few months ago.
The big difference this time was that I had stopped checking things up against the bible on a regular basis because through one thing or another my relationship with God was distorted. I couldn't view Him as a loving father but rather a angry God with a big stick ready to hit me whenever I got out of line. Since I didn't believe God was looking after me, I decided I had to look after myself and since I am a deep thinker, I decided the best way to do that was to increase my knowledge. I was still a Christian but it was about going through the motions of religion and being locked in the cage of legalism.
Since I am a Christian I decided that listening to Christian speakers talk about world events and the like would be a good plan, but unfortunately for me the people I listened to were really wolves in sheeps clothing. One of these speakers mentioned this thing called the Illuminati and since I didn't know much about it I researched it.
Before I knew it I was in too deep, I was desperately trying to break free of this obsession, but torn between feeling responsible for what I now knew and miserable because I was lost. I found myself falling deeper and deeper into the well of fear, oppression and addiction to knowledge. I'm not even sure when it happened, but at some point I crossed over from looking at things that are in line with the bible to things that were completely crazy. It's not just Christians that get obsessed with conspiracies, but people from every walk of life, even those who do not believe in God or a spirit realm at all. The Devil is brilliant at making the poison that is this obsession look like a sweet wrapped in whatever will catch you best. It is so incredibly subtle how it works.
It's a risk to post this on my blog, but as I say I feel this is something that shouldn't be just brushed aside because thousands of people fall prey to the tactics and tools every day. One of the devils favourite tools is taking the truth and twisting it, just a little so that he can inject it with his poison and entrap the mind heart and soul of the individual.
Once entrapped in end times obsession and/or conspiracy you become like putty in the devils hands and the puppet master knows exactly how to make you dance to his tune, but think its all you. Now I am not the kind of person to look at mistakes in my life and say the devil made me do it, but in the case of getting trapped in end times obsession and conspiracy, he certainly is at the height of his game and doesn't need much help from you to get you stuck!
For me personally when I become trapped, I stopped moving forward in my life (because what is the point in making a future if its all going to tragically end soon?) I became withdrawn, cutting myself off from the big scary world and under the advice of other people caught too, I even pushed away those things and people that meant the most to me. End times obsession like any other obsession or addiction can ruin your life!
I am not going to go any more into how it affected me personally but what I will say, is this has been the hardest learning curve I have ever encountered and if you are reading this and you're still stuck, get free a.s.a.p because if you don't you could die still stuck and the world will still be spinning on.
In the next post, I will share how I broke free and offer some tips for doing so,
Until then, take it care,