Letters to life 2 - My Spiritual Awakening Journey

Ok life, it's been a while since I've written to you. Sorry about that. You got in the way of time to sit down and type. 

Anyway, to day I thought we'd talk about my spiritual journey. You see i have now expirenced "enlightenment" and I gotta say it's not all it's cracked up to be. 

I had the inner peace, sense of zen and connectivness but it has nothing on the peace I experience in Jesus. 

I had the "light of many occultic truthes shining on me" but not one of those truthes had anything on the truth found in Jesus. 

I have ventured the road less traveled and less recommended and it has taken me to some dark places. That's ok though, the holy spirit was always with me lighting the way. I learnt the secrets of the occult for educational reasons but upon the discovery of frequency I felt no need to engage in ceremonial magik although I read the books. I witnessed the deception first hand. 
You life, led me on a winding road, one that ventured into the darkness even when I felt the tugging of Christ on my heart. Had I listened, maybe I'd still be in London. I did not though and I instead found myself flat on my face home in Wales. There are ofcourse other reasons but falling in the dark when holy spirit had gone ahead of me home to Wales , was a big part of my journey. 
I have had involvement with several secret societies, but of course they don't exist so what more can I say? Delusion. It's hard to see through the thick fog of spiritual depression but somehow I made it through that. I learnt all about dark enlightenment then the vanilla breed, I learnt the secrets of the light are black. They fall so short of Jesus the genuine article . We've done eastern mystisim and western esoteric teachings. A myrid of religions and schools of thought but nothing has landed so solid as standing right back where I started. Standing on the rock of Christ Jesus. 

That is where I am now, right at the begining back to my first love, Jesus Christ. 

From here, life we build you up.

With the right foundations in place this time I can't wait.