Daisy Change

 Trigger warning - sexual abuse, bulimia, depression and Flashbacks.  I will never forget Christmas 2006. I was sixteen and my then boyfriend chose Christmas day to break up with me. It was my first relationship and I was crushed.  Or how about Christmas 2008. When my crazy brain decided to choose Christmas day to remember that I had been sexually abused 3 years earlier.  Finally how about last Christmas, the first without my uncle and with a grandmother that now has Alzheimer's.  The point is I understand emotional pain in the holidays.  I've worn the painted smile for the sake of not ruining Christmas for my loved ones, when inside I felt lost, alone and emotionally drained from carrying something so heavy.  The worse for me was 2008, the pain of realizing that I, miss ' pure princess waiting on Gods best" had lost the most precious thing to me to a rape and sexual assault, was so painful I could barely breath.  My faith took a hit, I chose to c...

The Cost of Always-On We live in a world that rewards constant presence. Every notification demands your gaze, every trending topic demands your opinion, every algorithm punishes absence. Being “always-on” has become the baseline expectation — not the exception. And yet, being always-on comes at a cost. The human mind wasn’t designed for nonstop connection, rapid-response culture, and perpetual comparison. Sleep is shorter, attention spans are fractured, and anxiety is amplified by the pressure to be perpetually available. The irony is that connection has become extraction. Every moment you spend scrolling, replying, and engaging feeds a system that measures your attention as a commodity. Your energy becomes currency. Your time becomes debt. Resisting the always-on economy doesn’t require a grand gesture. It can be as small as: Turning off notifications for a day. Taking a walk without documenting it. Saying “no” to one more event or message. Each act is radical in its ...

Ok so this isn't the kind of post I usually write but it is a needed one. See I have decided to sit with the fact that Daisy Change over the years has become more of a ministry then a business, and that's fine. With that though comes the fact that you the silent readers are looking to connect to God not me.   You read my posts, maybe like them .but mostly I have to rely on my stats to see what has been going on. I just wanted to say hello to you and to thank you for reading my work.  I know that the nature of my work is that people from fringe lifestyles are reading and I know you can't be seen to be reading this so you're doing it in private, maybe with a torch under a blanket. Simply because people just don't talk about the things I do in polite society.  I think that its time I tell you that it is a honor and a privilege to serve your authentic faith journey.  The thing is, because I know my content is getting views and I can see that its impacting you even if on...

 This isn't going to be pretty, but it is going to be authentic.   Firstly, if you have followed me for any length of time, you likely noticed I took away the pretty theme and made my blog  look pretty  amateur , that's because I'm not in love with my blog right now. I needed to strip this blog right back and make it about the writing because that is what is most authentic to me at this point in my life.  See the online world has changed pretty dramatically over the last few years, there is a push to be more professional online  even if all you run is a little hobby blog. I know we were a business' but that's not the case anymore. I intentionally wanted to make the distinction. I now blog out of the goodness of my heart and because its fun, that's it.  I also want my content to be underrated right now because what I have to say in the coming posts definitely isn't for everyone, but if some amazing person finds a nugget in my writing  then th...