Showing posts with label letters to life. Show all posts
Showing posts with label letters to life. Show all posts

Letter to life ( starting again)

By    September 23, 2025 //

 Dear life, 

It's been a long while since I've updated my audience on what's going on with me so I thought I best do this now while I have a space between series. 

We just wrapped up Spiritual September and I've decided to do shocktober for October this year. There's a lot of things in the world that are shocking Daisy Change has a lot to share. 

I'm combing through old posts retagging them adding images and social media graphics. It's one heck of a job. 

I apparently haven't written a letter to you since my engagement fell through 3 years ago. I'm living with my family back in Wales now and writing had become my bread and butter. 

I have 25 blogs across the interwebs 

All on different topics but Daisy Change has always been my main one. 

15 years and still going strong. We have been through a lot and I'm so glad I built change into the model of daisy change because we are now on Daisy Change's personal and unpretty era. 

I'm okay with writing the messy, soulful posts again. My audience seems to like that. 

Also I've given it a lot of thought and I've decided to let my audience follow me where ever they are most comfortable. 

I'm on Pinterest, Instagram, X and Facebook I'll add links in my next post. 

Right now I'm talking to you life, thanking you for the lessons of the last few years.

Through my failed engagement I learnt to be inter pendent on my family. I'm a grown girl now, but sometimes I still need my family for moral support. I know I'm blessed to have them. 

My sibling is still transitioning from male to female. I'm more adjusted to it now. 

I miss old school blogging so I've decided that's my vibe. That's the kind of blog I want Daisy Change to be and people seem to like it so I will carry on. 

Also life, thank you for almost 36 years of you. I turn 36 on Thursday and im not sad to see 35 end it's been a tough year.

Anyway that's about all I want to share. 

Keep teaching me life, I'm listening and learning. 


Letters To Life 8 - Let's Talk About The Simple Life.

By    August 23, 2015 //

Okay life, I must have been walking around with a massive blind-spot since starting this site. You know I always reserve the right to grow and change, I think that you become the best version of yourself by learning from others success and failure and your own, and Daisy Change has always been built around the word authenticity. This is old news to you, but you recently taught me a lesson that changes the game of how I see the rest of my life and the overall direction of how I want my blog to go.
There is a massive difference between authenticity, perfection and saying too much. I intend to write a post about this as part of my April series so I won't bore you with the details right now.
Here's the last overly TMI statement to ever be written on Daisy Change ( if I can help it) I long for simplicity but up till this point my life has been overly complicated, and I know I have contributed to this. I am currently sitting a tiny bedroom that is full of clutter and junk. I had a massive shopping binge at the end of my week helping that family member move. After sleeping on an arm-chair, not eating properly and dealing with the challenges of helping an older person move and live with them whilst doing this, I really did feel like I needed to blow off some steam! The new stuff I have is not junk, but I am determined that since I have bought new things that I have to get rid of some old things to make room for them. The problem is, clutter has always been a problem for me. Believe me it runs in my blood and I would love to blame that, but my brother  and certain other family members have worked extra hard to break the trend in their lives and I really want to follow that awesome example. That's the whole reason why I decided to spend a whole month writing about altering your life for the better. I am currently in the middle of simplifying my own life and in order to buck the trend of starting this process, finding something " I forgot I had but love" and spending hours on using said new thing, I have given myself a deadline to get my life simplified by the end of April.
Life we are now over half way through the month and I am beginning to feel the pressure of my own goal. I know I can do it, but I have lost a week working on this and actually in some respects my shopping binge ( which is really not like me) was  a bit of a set back.  I'm a little frustrated, but never the less today is a new day and I will get back on track today. Procrastination doesn't even get a look in, you know how I feel about that life.
Another thing I've been thinking about is writing a simple blog, should be far less wordy. Simple things are usually short and sweet but looking back on my posts they are rather long and in some respects a bit complicated. I don't mind my letters to you being long life, because in reality my letters are only a snip-it of the paths you have me walk but as far as my other posts are concerned, I want to set up a new policy to ensure reading my posts on advantage takes less than 5 minutes at maximum but aim for less than 2 minutes.  I know I worded that weird, but this whole simple thing is really something I am only really learning about.  I guess my blog is authentic in that it records my journey to simplicity as it happens. Then when I reach my goal of simplicity, it will be all about maintaining it and I will be in position to share more of what I have learned. In other-words, Daisy Change is only going to grow, just like a flower.
Anyway, I think that's about it, I'm gonna start tackling the boxes of paper on my desk now.
Catch you later life,
Love Hayley
xXx

Letters To Life 7 - I won't stop on 6

By    July 23, 2015 //
Potential Triggers - Sexual abuse, Depression, Eating Disorders. ( mentioned not explained.)
This post does contain a little faith-based content.


Dear Life,
I can't believe this day has finally arrived! You know the painful journey it has taken to get to this point, but at long last it's finally over. You have no idea how grateful I am to God for this. It makes me so happy I actually want to cry! I am of-course talking about moving day. Not for myself, but for the family member that is moving, this was a long time coming and it will be good for them to move on from the dark shadows of the past.  As you know, I lost a family member last year. The grieving process taught me many lessons, but now that my other family member is moving it feels like we actually get to move on, although the person we lost will never be forgotten.
Life you know, I want my blog to be authentic, but at the same time I also like to appear to be strong enough to handle whatever you throw at me, sometimes though life that really just isn't the case. Sometimes life you throw things at me that make me feel like I am wondering in the desert or lost at sea,  alone in my screaming pain, darkness and cruel thoughts. I have definitively experienced  the dark night of the soul on  many occasions. My saving grace during these times  always has been and always will be my savior and best friend Jesus, nothing can comfort me quite so well as he does. He is gentle, but safe and I love him so much. He accepts me just as I am and helps me find my feet again. Life, depression can really suck! I don't know why God allows me to walk those dark paths that Jet always get me on, but what I do know is that the light is never more appreciated then when it is breaking into darkness.  I see no reason to go into detail, because life you were there you already know, the last 14 years have been incredibly trying. I'm not so naive to think that after today, I will never have to deal with pain again, you take me to good places and bad, and both serve the purpose intended in God's perfect time.  I am not afraid of the future life, but I am so relieved to finally let go of the past. That said, I think my story will always be with me, I know that from time to time, I am called up on to tell it because it can help others see there is always hope no matter how dark it may seem. Life you really are full of surprises!
Maybe this will be the last time for a while but let's recap. In the last 14 years you have walked me through depression, an eating disorder, homelessness, anxiety, betrayal, rejection, loss, so much loss. Confusion, fear, insane amounts of pain due to different degrees of sexual abuse and many nasty surprises I really rather forget. Does that cover everything? No, actually it doesn't because you have also walked me though, getting up after failure, many times. Peace,healing, forgiveness, restored innocence,security, grace and love. I know that God is responsible for this, he turned my ashes in to beauty and I know He is ready and willing to do it for anyone that will ask, but the point is life. I am still here and I am done running from the fact that these things happened. If God can ever use my story to help someone else, awesome. If even one line of what I have been through can help someone start or find a little strength to continue fighting for their own healing and wholeness then it is was worth it to be this open and honest, even on such a public platform as my blog.
I know so many people who would tell me to talk about my past here life, is a really bad idea. There is a natural desire in most humans to hide their shortcomings and failings, but you see, my life is not my own and I wouldn't even be here today writing if it were not for God's grace. So therefore I figure, if I'm still here there must be a reason why, and maybe part of that is to tell my story. It's not that I am anyone special ( although we are all special to God) it's just as simple as I have a voice and I am willing to use it. I was only recently reminded that my voice matters and so since I got that reminder I want to use my voice to make a difference, even if it's only in a few people's lives. I want to let the young broken girl, that tries to cover up her pain with makeup, that she is beautiful just the way she is. I want to tell the twenty-something like myself, that the confusion will end one day and you will find your place. I want to tell the depressed soul, to fight to win. Depression and mental illness doesn't have to be your undoing , you can still do amazing things with your life.  I have learned so much over the past years life and I know you have much to teach me, but at long last the chapter of my life marked " running in pain and hiding in tears", is finally over and so I guess now I can breathe a sigh of relief before the next battle starts.
Anyway, the phone's ringing so I guess that means it's time to help with the move.
Catch you soon life,
Love Hayley
xXx
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Letters To Life 6 - Run Devil Run!

By    July 03, 2015 //

Dear life, wow what a roller-coaster the past few years have been. I've tried so many doors, failed and bounced back so many times, I could probably give Tigger a run for his money! I've learned so much in that time, you taught me some tough lessons, but I'm finally standing in the position I've dreamt of all my life. I know who I am and what I'm about but what's more I now know what I was created for. There is nothing more fulfilling then doing the thing you were designed to do, and now I finally get it, even my pain makes sense!
In order to explain what on earth I'm even on about I will have to remind you life of the journey you have taken me on that led to this point. As you know I just had my blogger birthday, in preparation for that I did something very dangerous...I googled my teenage self. Through doing this I was reminded of the passion and pursuits I had back then. It is true that for most of us, the most passionate we will ever be is when we are in our teen years. Youth on a mission is bad news for the darkness of this world, they can do real damage or real good if they put their mind to it. I should know, I use to be one of them. Somehow, between the pressures of growing up and typical early twenties issues like self discovery and just wanting to be young and enjoy life, I lost sight of the causes I cared so passionately about when I was younger. It's not that I didn't care, because I always did and still do, it's more that I forgot the fact I have a voice and that matters.  Ive listened to so many opinions in the last few years I completely lost sight of my own!  So then life lets remind you (and the future me  should I ever forget again) who I am and what I'm about and actually think about things.
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It started with a book.  Be the Change by Zach Hunter.  I read it when I was sweet sixteen, in college hurting because I had only just started my healing journey but so on fire for God and passionately seeking to make the world a better place, or at very least my world a better place. I had a burning desire to start a project to connect the hurting teens at my college with people who could actually help them. I wanted to make a difference and I wanted to stand for those that felt like they couldn't. I wanted to be an arrow or a hand, acting as a first step to recovery and helping people start their own healing journey and if they found Jesus along the way that was even more awesome!  After reading Zach Hunter's book. I did just that. It inspired me no end. In the time my project Beauty From Beneath The Scars was running we helped over 500 people get started on their healing journeys. It was challenging, especially since I had work, college, family and church commitments to think about and I was insane amounts of inner pain, looking back I'm sure God was in it and is the only reason I got through all that. It's still amazing to know that  this is my reality, and will forever be a part of my story. I feel so, so blessed and privileged  to know that but it's not enough. I'm still breathing and there is still work to be done and I really want to get stuck in again.
Anyway back on point, I put my passion for healing on the shelf for many years but now 10 years on, that passion has woken up inside of me and I can barely contain it!!
How this happened needs to be forever recorded in another letter, I genuinely believe my story may help someone else realise they are closer to the breakthrough they long for then they think.
So then life,  I will write you again tomorrow but for now I'm in London, the sun is shining and this little break was needed.
Catch you later,
Love Hayley
xXx

Letters To Life - 5?

By    July 03, 2015 //

Dear life,
I'm not sure what number letter this is but never mind, I'm still going to write to you. I kind of fell of the bandwagon in February when it came to writing my blog.  I did post a few things, but quickly deleted them because they just did not feel like me. My writing was heavily guided by emotional pain. Never a good plan if you want to put out something very specifically light and fluffy. I think every writer goes through phases where they just can't seem to come up with anything worth while to write about, I see my writing as an extension of myself and therefore I am very protective over my work. I am sure I am not the only one that goes thought the frustrating dance of writing something, hating it, deleting it then screwing up the paper and launching it across the room because I'm just not happy with any of my ideas.  I set out a schedule for what I wanted to do  on my blog in February, but then my emotions took the reigns and nothing stuck.

If writing were a hobby for me and I had set out my blog to just be a place to gather my thoughts, this would have been okay, however, this blog is designed with a mission in mind I have set guidelines and boundaries for my writing and my awesome readers tune into my work because they are interested in the subject matter.  By going off the tracks and writing about things not set out in the mission statement, I feel like I've seriously let down my readers. I value each and every one of them so much, but my writing this last month has only rarely reflected that. I want to apologize to my readers for the lack of content and the apathetic nature of the posts I did get up in this last month. I am not going to make excuses because all we really have in life is our word and in some respect, by not putting out the content I said I would, I broke mine. (along with my new year's resolution about consistency. but that's a whole other regret). Sometimes second chances don't exist. Especially in the saturated market of every industry today that is so full of choice, it really is a real achievement to get people to tune into what you have to say, and then to keep them tuning in a whole other task in itself.  Life you know, it never has been about the numbers for me. However, just because it's not about the numbers, doesn't mean I should care any less about putting out decent content.
It's really not the easiest thing in the world, life to live above emotions, but if this blog is going to be the vehicle to do what is was designed to do, then living above my emotions is something I really need to master. I know I am not perfect and this side of heaven , I never will be, but every great writer, artist, or inspirational figure that I look up to, all have in common that they learned how to handle their emotions, stay focused and complete their given tasks. Integrity is really important to me, but so is authenticity and the two don't always agree.
I think life I need to lay out once again my intentions for Daisy Change, not only on this blog but also somewhere I can see it every time I sit down to write. I set the boundaries for this blog for very good reasons. but it feels like all I've done so far this year is talk about intentions on this blog without actually carrying them out, so let's make this life, the last time that happens.
Think that's about it, catch you next time,
Love Hayley
xXx

Letters To Life 4 - Finding Me in You.

By    July 02, 2015 //


Dear Life,
You taught me last year that sometimes there is more freedom in silence than words. You and i have many secrets and I think I'm finally okay with that. I used to find it hard to keep things to myself because I craved Peoples approval, these days though ,I am more than happy to live for the audience of one. 

 I'm learning what it means to be gracefully bold.  I didn't know that such a thing existed but it does.  

I am finally at a place where I can love people from both sides of the coin. 

I can encourage, inspire, compliment and build up in love but I can also speak the truth, even if its hard to hear, I care about what happens to those put on my path, both in this life and the next and nothing brings me more joy than loving people hard-core. 

Being prepared to get into the mess, not judge but gently help girls that are where I once was to a place where they can stand and look themselves square in the mirror and see the beauty that God created, there in their eyes. 

 The older I get, the more my passion for this grows. It feels life, like this is what I was born to do, so no more games than, there's work to do. I am on a mission and I won't quit until its finished!

I love you life, you are amazing!  

Your ups and downs all lead around this winding road to new challenges, new blessings and new ground. You and I know where I am right now, I never ever thought I would ever be right at this point. 

Yet here I am. 2015 is going to be amazing, I can feel it in my code! I know Jet may show is ugly mutt face from time to time but I will always fight to win and I am all in on making Daisy Change an encouragement center to act as spring-board to greater things for my awesome readers!

Anyways, enough talk, let's make it happen!

Love Hayley
xXx
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