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Dear life,
I'm not sure what number letter this is but never mind, I'm still going to write to you. I kind of fell of the bandwagon in February when it came to writing my blog. I did post a few things, but quickly deleted them because they just did not feel like me. My writing was heavily guided by emotional pain. Never a good plan if you want to put out something very specifically light and fluffy. I think every writer goes through phases where they just can't seem to come up with anything worth while to write about, I see my writing as an extension of myself and therefore I am very protective over my work. I am sure I am not the only one that goes thought the frustrating dance of writing something, hating it, deleting it then screwing up the paper and launching it across the room because I'm just not happy with any of my ideas. I set out a schedule for what I wanted to do on my blog in February, but then my emotions took the reigns and nothing stuck.
If writing were a hobby for me and I had set out my blog to just be a place to gather my thoughts, this would have been okay, however, this blog is designed with a mission in mind I have set guidelines and boundaries for my writing and my awesome readers tune into my work because they are interested in the subject matter. By going off the tracks and writing about things not set out in the mission statement, I feel like I've seriously let down my readers. I value each and every one of them so much, but my writing this last month has only rarely reflected that. I want to apologize to my readers for the lack of content and the apathetic nature of the posts I did get up in this last month. I am not going to make excuses because all we really have in life is our word and in some respect, by not putting out the content I said I would, I broke mine. (along with my new year's resolution about consistency. but that's a whole other regret). Sometimes second chances don't exist. Especially in the saturated market of every industry today that is so full of choice, it really is a real achievement to get people to tune into what you have to say, and then to keep them tuning in a whole other task in itself. Life you know, it never has been about the numbers for me. However, just because it's not about the numbers, doesn't mean I should care any less about putting out decent content.
It's really not the easiest thing in the world, life to live above emotions, but if this blog is going to be the vehicle to do what is was designed to do, then living above my emotions is something I really need to master. I know I am not perfect and this side of heaven , I never will be, but every great writer, artist, or inspirational figure that I look up to, all have in common that they learned how to handle their emotions, stay focused and complete their given tasks. Integrity is really important to me, but so is authenticity and the two don't always agree.
I think life I need to lay out once again my intentions for Daisy Change, not only on this blog but also somewhere I can see it every time I sit down to write. I set the boundaries for this blog for very good reasons. but it feels like all I've done so far this year is talk about intentions on this blog without actually carrying them out, so let's make this life, the last time that happens.
Think that's about it, catch you next time,
Love Hayley
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