Daisy Change

There is a delicate balance as a blogger, between reading or watching things because it's research for our own blog, and watching and reading things just because we enjoy it.  I am convinced true life balance is a complete illusion. I have believed perfect work/life balance was a myth for many years  work-life/balance requires perfection, this is an  unrealistic goal to be chasing.  None of us is perfect so why chase perfection? With that in mind, the title of this post claims the content you are reading contains advice on how to juggle life as a blogger.  It does.  Trust me I am getting to that, but before I give you my tips for managing blogging and life, I first needed to set the scene just so I can give you what I think is the number one most valuable self-loving thing you can do for yourself as a blogger, and indeed a person. Don't put so much pressure on yourself,  take some time every day just for you.  You can't make your blog as awe...

  Is it possible to be drunk on shame? Is it possible to be so lost in consequence,  You no longer care of fortune and fame? Picked to bits, but painted and polite. Lost in the darkness, but shining bright. How is this even right? An invisible gag catches all these thoughts, And I'm scripted for this roll. I'm bought. I have to remember my training,  Do only what I'm taught. No time for free, I'm too busy being me. I'm a queen of pain,  Barely sane. How is this my life? I'm, a double in a single, it causes so much turmoil and strife.  Don't even get me started on the rituals and rules!  I sincerely think the alleged smart man that invented this is a fool!  A word to those that think themselves wise, Don't let the light trick your eyes.  I'm, just about done with all this delusion.  I've got nothing to loose, so screw the illusion! The way darkness dies is by dragging it to holy light.  Yep that's right, I'm not the person ...

Just... I don't want to write right now, but the boss says I must, So I gotta make this work somehow. I honestly don't feel like I'm even here.  Yet somehow, my heart is full of human things, like doubt, anguish and  fear.  I look flawless, the camera lies.  And with every little secret, part of my soul dies.  I started out so bright.  Living in the light. Trying to do all I can to live right. But the day was a long time ago.  I'm lost, in limbo in the night.  At this point, why even fight? I only hope God really is in the forgiving business.  But after all I've done and seen, how? So when you see me smile and act like all is well. Please know I am living my own personal hell.  I was blinded by the light.  It appeared so pure and beautiful, so sparkling white.  Then the boss introduced me to blue. Can I please change my shoes?  This path is not a good fit.  I feel like I'm drowning, but  breathing, how is this re...

Before we go any further let me just make it clear, there are affiliate links in this post. This is no extra cost to you, but if you click and purchase something via one of my links then I may make a small commission. Disclaimer :The following post is written purely from experience, if you are going through a hard time and feel the need to do so, you should seek professional assistance from the reverent sources.  I am not a doctor, counsellor or therapist, if you choose to take my advise you do so at your own risk.  I have noticed recently that we have a lot of new followers to this site, so before I get started let me give you a little bit of background. I am a country girl from South Wales, and my other half is a Londoner. We were a long distance couple for a long time, but eventually, I moved to London, not just to be closer to him, but also because it was better for my well-being, career and overall goals for fulfilment. London as with any city, is so divers...

Disclaimer :The following post is written purely from experience, if you are going through a hard time and feel the need to do so, you should seek professional assistance from the reverent sources. I am not a doctor, counselor or therapist, if you choose to take my advise you do so at your own risk.  Before I get into this, I need to say that although I have acknowledged the king of this blog, in so much as I have asked permission to do this, I act alone in the following... The nature of what I am about to share with you, is not something that anyone else should bare the weight of, since this is my decision, based on my own convictions. I am sorry this sounds so dramatic, but anyone who knew the old me in person will know, drama and Hayley Esther kind of go hand in hand. I admit to this fully, and it is for the purpose of leaning into a language I have taught those that love and support me, to expect from me, that I now choose to make my exist in a dramatic fashion ...

Before we go any further let me just make it clear, there are affiliate links in this post. This is no extra cost to you, but if you click and purchase something via one of my links then I may make a small commission. Disclaimer :The following post is written purely from experience, if you are going through a hard time and feel the need to do so, you should seek professional assistance from the reverent sources.  I am not a doctor, counsellor or therapist, if you choose to take my advise you do so at your own risk.  I have noticed recently that we have a lot of new followers to this site, so before I get started let me give you a little bit of background. I am a country girl from South Wales, and my other half is a Londoner. We were a long distance couple for a long time, but eventually, I moved to London, not just to be closer to him, but also because it was better for my well-being, career and overall goals for fulfilment. London as with any city, is so divers...