Daisy Change

Potential Triggers - Sexual abuse, Depression, Eating Disorders. ( mentioned not explained.) This post does contain a little faith-based content. Dear Life, I can't believe this day has finally arrived! You know the painful journey it has taken to get to this point, but at long last it's finally over. You have no idea how grateful I am to God for this. It makes me so happy I actually want to cry! I am of-course talking about moving day. Not for myself, but for the family member that is moving, this was a long time coming and it will be good for them to move on from the dark shadows of the past.  As you know, I lost a family member last year. The grieving process taught me many lessons, but now that my other family member is moving it feels like we actually get to move on, although the person we lost will never be forgotten. Life you know, I want my blog to be authentic, but at the same time I also like to appear to be strong enough to handle whatever you throw at me, sometimes ...

Dear life, wow what a roller-coaster the past few years have been. I've tried so many doors, failed and bounced back so many times, I could probably give Tigger a run for his money! I've learned so much in that time, you taught me some tough lessons, but I'm finally standing in the position I've dreamt of all my life. I know who I am and what I'm about but what's more I now know what I was created for. There is nothing more fulfilling then doing the thing you were designed to do, and now I finally get it, even my pain makes sense! In order to explain what on earth I'm even on about I will have to remind you life of the journey you have taken me on that led to this point. As you know I just had my blogger birthday, in preparation for that I did something very dangerous...I googled my teenage self. Through doing this I was reminded of the passion and pursuits I had back then. It is true that for most of us, the most passionate we will ever be is when we are in...

Dear life, I'm not sure what number letter this is but never mind, I'm still going to write to you. I kind of fell of the bandwagon in February when it came to writing my blog.  I did post a few things, but quickly deleted them because they just did not feel like me. My writing was heavily guided by emotional pain. Never a good plan if you want to put out something very specifically light and fluffy. I think every writer goes through phases where they just can't seem to come up with anything worth while to write about, I see my writing as an extension of myself and therefore I am very protective over my work. I am sure I am not the only one that goes thought the frustrating dance of writing something, hating it, deleting it then screwing up the paper and launching it across the room because I'm just not happy with any of my ideas.  I set out a schedule for what I wanted to do  on my blog in February, but then my emotions took the reigns and nothing stuck. If writing wer...

Dear Life, You taught me last year that sometimes there is more freedom in silence than words . You and i have many secrets and I think I'm finally okay with that. I used to find it hard to keep things to myself because I craved Peoples approval, these days though ,I am more than happy to live for the audience of one.   I'm learning what it means to be gracefully bold.  I didn't know that such a thing existed but it does.   I am finally at a place where I can love people from both sides of the coin.  I can encourage, inspire, compliment and build up in love but I can also speak the truth, even if its hard to hear, I care about what happens to those put on my path, both in this life and the next and nothing brings me more joy than loving people hard-core.  Being prepared to get into the mess, not judge but gently help girls that are where I once was to a place where they can stand and look themselves square in the mirror and see the beauty that God cre...