Daisy Change

So the music is blaring over on Spotify. I'm listening to a public playlist I made to help manage stress and anxiety, feel free to check it out here.  Making a playlist/putting the music on is always ground level zero for me.  I have at this point perfected a method for change management that starts with the music and works super well for me. I am currently in the process of getting this process written into a format that will work well for my awesome readers. I am so grateful to every single one of you for following me over the last decade, and especially the last few years as this country girl has learnt the wonderful ways of city life, living here in London.  If you missed part one of this, then basically, I am from Newport, South Wales, I was in a long-distance relationship with a Londoner for 3 years and it was getting to that point where one of you needs to move. I'm also a Christian and so at the time, I wanted to be sure it was God's will to move to London, that I...

I've made this post skim friendly and if you're like I was too drained to read a long post then here's the bottom line. Conclusion: The Trans trap is taking care of others to the point you're neglecting your own needs.  Emotional blackmail is NEVER acceptable. I know that suicide rates are higher in the trans community, but that doesn't mean you're feeling should be ignored. Don't get so lost in taking care of your trans loved one and all the people this news impacts, that you forget that you matter too. I did that, the results were disastrous. H ere's how to not make my mistake.  To start, I don't care if you are LGBT affirming or not, this isn't about your loved one, this is about you because let's be honest, the help that is out there for the family and friends is severely lacking. I should know, I have a transgender sibling and you know what? That sucks.   (cue the misguided hate from people who clearly haven't read the whole article...

Short Version People that chase happiness will never be happy for very long because it's more about the chase than the object in question. Not sure you buy that? Want to know what to do instead?? Keep Reading. Happiness is an emotion, it comes and goes because life is up and down. Chasing happiness usually leads to unhealthy people with dead dreams and more debt then they know what to do with! I am not suggesting that the desire to be happy or even the pursuit of happiness is wrong. What I am against is, the idea that life is all about happiness, that we should be aiming for it in every area of our lives and if we don't somehow that makes us a failure and if we can't hold on to happiness, well then that is even worse! Happiness is an emotion, it is fleeting, I like to think of it like a butterfly, here one moment, gone the next.   Follow me on Insta for more like this....  Chasing happiness will never bring fulfilment.  It  will lead to frustration.  You would...

 Apostate. Now here comes the most tragic story,  I knew the one shining in glory. I've felt the warmth of love like no other.  I remember the day I got pulled from the gutter.  I stood up, with the help of my Lord. But let's be real, then I got broken, then I got board. I thought, rapture was imminent years ago. Thirty years later and I'm still waiting for the start of the show! Money answers all things,  But, each time I lead a sheep a stray my soul stings! I understand how Judas must have felt, and now I'm awaiting a burning punishment for pain that I've dealt.  But mercy is everlasting and I'm still here.  Maybe grace really is a licence to sin, maybe I'm fine. So, go on then dark one, for a billion bucks more I will take a sip of your wine.  And yet.. Despite all that has been going on,  If I'm feeling this convicted, can I really be too far gone? Copyright Hayley Esther 19.08.2019

 The Witches Confession.  They say Christian witches don't exist, but surprise here I am!  Fancy a bottle of oil, a prayer cloth?  Some Holy wine?  For a price of course!  If this didn't make me rich, Do you really think I would be a witch? The power is my drug! The devil's just a thug! Who says I can't play with his toys?  I thought you said I could do anything through the strength of Christ.  If I'm really honest, when I'm alone at night. I know I've embraced Jezebel.  You see I need protection from all the bugs. They say raped not ruined but have you seen my life?!  It's been so tragic, so full of strife.  So what else is a girl to do? I'm safe now, you can't take this girl boss crown!!  I'm a witch on a mission,  and the last thing on my mind is submission!  Copyright Hayley Esther 16.08.2019