Daisy Change

Hey guys, its been a hot minute since I've even been myself in person, let alone online! 😒 I know that isn't really something one is suppose to admit but alas turns out I really don't care about how I am perceived. 😎 I am what I am, but always in Gods plan.  Anyway, I don't know about you, but I'm so done being depressed and pandering to the whims of this pandemic the world is facing right now.  You may think I'm talking about Covid..  Nope.  I'm talking about the pink elephant in the room over there eating peanut cookies. (and Lambi's Jaffacakes, she isn't amused.) I'm talking about the pandemic of the pain of being stuck on stuck.  That is what it is, none of us can change what has happened. We just have to move forward now, but that's hard when we are so unsure if things are going to ever get back to normal.  We all know that alot of pain in a lot of difference areas has been experienced by people all over the world.  The big t...

Dear "socially acceptable blogging etiquette" This isn't working I think we need to break up. I know you have a lot to offer with your sponsorship's and other opportunities be they financial or otherwise,  but the thing of  it is,  being with you has caused me to lose myself and that is something I'm just not okay with, like at all. Not even a little bit. Compromising on what I stand for has never been an option for me and yet because I got lost in your ever-climbing stats  and shiny monochrome template, I somehow forget that .  I forget that I have been brought up to stand away from the crowd even if that does mean standing alone.(if said crowd is going in a direction I don't want for myself) I've learned a lot about myself during our time together and I have no doubt that there is someone out there perfect for you, but it's just not me. I know that you like to know in detail why I make the decisions I do, so despite the fact I don't like to pull ...

 Straight off the bat, I expect to be misunderstood here and that is fine, if you get triggered by this good. That tells me I hit a nerve and maybe at some point when you are ready, it will make you think about your own eternal state.  As for mine? Well... If you had asked me at any point before 2018, I would have told you I will be a Christian until my dying day, now though I'm not sure that's true. You see, I have this really pesky problem that has been a driving force since I was small.  Ready to hear it? I am now, and always will be in love with the real Jesus, and I'm not sure I see much of what He is about in what we call Modern Christianity.  I've never really been one to care more for religion, although I can respect it, but I have always been a woman of faith.  The thing is though, and this has taken a lot for me to come to terms with. I do also have a serious love for all things occult.  There, if my tittle didn't cause the first run of well meani...

  Potent Poetry This post has been a long time coming, only I didn't know it. I'm a woman of faith, its time to show it. Sure I could do more actions to back words I have preached my whole life, But the truth is, following Jesus shouldn't cut like a knife. I know this is highly odd and out of the blue, but old actions don't make the world new.  A journey that has literally been thorns and stones.  Still at long last, in my heart I am coming home. I choose you Jesus, no words needed you already paid the price.  Even if it costs me my life, right is right.  I need to be rescued from this dark light. This black, red and white pony show must end tonight. I give you all the glory, and all of the praise. I choose to live for you, for all of my days. So then enough dagger and cloak. Fear shut up, this is no time to croak.. Sometimes faith requires reason take the back seat.  See I'm extremely calculated, but still I choose to live on my knees. All for the sake of ...

Ode To The Ex Oh you special little snowflake please!  Do you really think I have time for that? I'm living life in the fast lane, and nothing you say can change the facts! I stand for something, so falling for stupid little schemes is just not part of the deal. You may have had me wrapped around your finger once up on a time, But nothing you say can draw me back to such an empty life, it's a trap! There's a way out, I found it, but it cost me all I had. To turn my back on that would just be super sad. So let's just not shall we? Do your thing, but count me out. I have no need for your secrets, I have enough of my own. I can't be bought, I'm already owned. My boss is hidden in plain sight. I was born to be a light.  I know your petty enough to take my rejection as an invitation to start a war, but you see I'm on the winning side.  So bring it on babe, don't you know I don't scare easily. Don't you dare take that as permission! I know who I am and...

  Is it possible to be drunk on shame? Is it possible to be so lost in consequence,  You no longer care of fortune and fame? Picked to bits, but painted and polite. Lost in the darkness, but shining bright. How is this even right? An invisible gag catches all these thoughts, And I'm scripted for this roll. I'm bought. I have to remember my training,  Do only what I'm taught. No time for free, I'm too busy being me. I'm a queen of pain,  Barely sane. How is this my life? I'm, a double in a single, it causes so much turmoil and strife.  Don't even get me started on the rituals and rules!  I sincerely think the alleged smart man that invented this is a fool!  A word to those that think themselves wise, Don't let the light trick your eyes.  I'm, just about done with all this delusion.  I've got nothing to loose, so screw the illusion! The way darkness dies is by dragging it to holy light.  Yep that's right, I'm not the person ...

Just... I don't want to write right now, but the boss says I must, So I gotta make this work somehow. I honestly don't feel like I'm even here.  Yet somehow, my heart is full of human things, like doubt, anguish and  fear.  I look flawless, the camera lies.  And with every little secret, part of my soul dies.  I started out so bright.  Living in the light. Trying to do all I can to live right. But the day was a long time ago.  I'm lost, in limbo in the night.  At this point, why even fight? I only hope God really is in the forgiving business.  But after all I've done and seen, how? So when you see me smile and act like all is well. Please know I am living my own personal hell.  I was blinded by the light.  It appeared so pure and beautiful, so sparkling white.  Then the boss introduced me to blue. Can I please change my shoes?  This path is not a good fit.  I feel like I'm drowning, but  breathing, how is this re...

Hey awesome reader, thanks for coming back. Today we would like to introduce the pillars we built our foundations on. If you have read are introductions post then you will know we love acronyms around here, and our blogs' pillars are based on this. So to do this, we are now going to look at each word and what it means in the context we use it. Then we will look at a few other little things that tie up what we build our blog on. The Pillar of Joy Our first word is Joy, we did say that this could be an acronym of its own we will get to that in a moment. Joy to us is about chasing fulfillment not happiness. We need it to be our strength when things are not going so well, it is not just a feeling it is a lifestyle. We haven't made it a secret that Christian faith-based elements will be incorporated into this blog from time to time and the concept of joy for us is the faith-based pillar we build on.  Building on the concept of simple temple living we talked about the last post, joy...

Hey there, thanks so much for coming back, we are so very excited you're giving us a chance to share our heart with you today. We like to imagine that our blog is a little house that we are building.  We don't want this little house to fall down because we didn't take the time to build a solid foundation. That would be tragic, so please bear with us while we get this bit out of the way.  We have a ton of really great content coming soon, but first, we need to lay some foundations. So what is simple temple living? Well, you may have heard of the concept already, but it doesn't really have a name in the wider world just yet, so for the purposes of this blog, we decided to con the term simple temple living The closest concept that exists to this currently would be mindfulness, but even that leaves a lot to be desired when explaining what simple temple living is.  Simple temple living is based on the idea that we are created in the image of God and our body is a temple of ...

Dear Awesome readers, I strongly believe that we are all three-part beings.  We are spirits, with souls living in flesh cases called bodies. Your spirit and soul live forever, but your body does not.   This belief guides what I am about to say below, but you don't have to believe this in order to get the point of what I am going to share with you, I've just included my own belief for background purposes. This is a concept I like to call simple temple living.  This is based on the idea that we are  OK, with that said let's jump into today's post. Let's start by defining what I believe about each element of our three parts. I could be wrong, but this is how I understand things. The Soul - Designed for connection with others, we are relational beings. I t is also the centre of our emotions and if we hurt inside it's usually the soul that feels the pain. The Spirit - The essence of you, your passions, creativity and desire for something more comes from this part o...

So the music is blaring over on Spotify. I'm listening to a public playlist I made to help manage stress and anxiety, feel free to check it out here.  Making a playlist/putting the music on is always ground level zero for me.  I have at this point perfected a method for change management that starts with the music and works super well for me. I am currently in the process of getting this process written into a format that will work well for my awesome readers. I am so grateful to every single one of you for following me over the last decade, and especially the last few years as this country girl has learnt the wonderful ways of city life, living here in London.  If you missed part one of this, then basically, I am from Newport, South Wales, I was in a long-distance relationship with a Londoner for 3 years and it was getting to that point where one of you needs to move. I'm also a Christian and so at the time, I wanted to be sure it was God's will to move to London, that I...