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 Apostate. Now here comes the most tragic story,  I knew the one shining in glory. I've felt the warmth of love like no other.  I remember the day I got pulled from the gutter.  I stood up, with the help of my Lord. But let's be real, then I got broken, then I got board. I thought, rapture was imminent years ago. Thirty years later and I'm still waiting for the start of the show! Money answers all things,  But, each time I lead a sheep a stray my soul stings! I understand how Judas must have felt, and now I'm awaiting a burning punishment for pain that I've dealt.  But mercy is everlasting and I'm still here.  Maybe grace really is a licence to sin, maybe I'm fine. So, go on then dark one, for a billion bucks more I will take a sip of your wine.  And yet.. Despite all that has been going on,  If I'm feeling this convicted, can I really be too far gone? Copyright Hayley Esther 19.08.2019

 The Witches Confession.  They say Christian witches don't exist, but surprise here I am!  Fancy a bottle of oil, a prayer cloth?  Some Holy wine?  For a price of course!  If this didn't make me rich, Do you really think I would be a witch? The power is my drug! The devil's just a thug! Who says I can't play with his toys?  I thought you said I could do anything through the strength of Christ.  If I'm really honest, when I'm alone at night. I know I've embraced Jezebel.  You see I need protection from all the bugs. They say raped not ruined but have you seen my life?!  It's been so tragic, so full of strife.  So what else is a girl to do? I'm safe now, you can't take this girl boss crown!!  I'm a witch on a mission,  and the last thing on my mind is submission!  Copyright Hayley Esther 16.08.2019

So you've taken the plunge, it's official you are moving to London! Congratulations you!  You are about to embark on one heck of a journey!! Here are a few little tidbits that may help you as you make this move.  I've broken this post into 3 sections.... How You are likely to feel.  How You are likely to be treated. How to quickly adjust, or at least look like you are. Let's get started. So how are you likely to feel? Well to tell you the truth, I would be concerned if you're not on a little bit of an emotional rollercoaster right now. Moving to a new city is a big deal. So much of your life is about to change. It should feel exciting, but it's normal to feel a little (or a lot) nervous. Those butterflies in your tummy are a good thing when you first get to London, they will keep you sharp and alert.  You need to be. It's a very fast-paced place, especially in the centre and even more so when travelling.  It's okay, you will get used to it. A little lat...

Before we go any further let me just make it clear, there are affiliate links in this post. This is no extra cost to you, but if you click and purchase something via one of my links then I may make a small commission. Disclaimer :The following post is written purely from experience, if you are going through a hard time and feel the need to do so, you should seek professional assistance from the reverent sources.  I am not a doctor, counsellor or therapist, if you choose to take my advise you do so at your own risk.  I have noticed recently that we have a lot of new followers to this site, so before I get started let me give you a little bit of background. I am a country girl from South Wales, and my other half is a Londoner. We were a long distance couple for a long time, but eventually, I moved to London, not just to be closer to him, but also because it was better for my well-being, career and overall goals for fulfilment. London as with any city, is so divers...

Hey guys, we're back!  Hope you are having a great Summer, we sure are!  In fact, you can see just how much fun we've been having over on insta where we are smack bang in our summer of reflection.  You see I have a big birthday at the end of this Summer and so before I hit the big _0 I wanted to reflect on all that I have learnt thus far, and where life has brought me. Now it just wouldn't be right if, given that I am a generous person by nature if I don't share that generosity with the city that I have called home for 5 years.  Previously to that, I was in a long-distance relationship with my other half for 5 years and so f or 10 years now, London has been a regular part of my life. I know that many of you are moving to London for school around about now. (or maybe you just moved here for your other half/as a faith move and need to jump straight into work like I did) The thing is, much of what I share here could be useful if you are moving to the big city this Su...

How To Leave A Secret Society And Not Die (How I Got Trapped) They trapped me, or maybe or perhaps it was my ignorant bliss. I thought they loved, I thought they cared, But really they lied, they emptied me wallet and soul. I was so broken, Thinking there was  no way out.  I thought I was desperate at the beginning. When death signed the marriage certificate.  But oh what bliss to struggle in freedom! The day they gave me everything,  I thought I won, but really I lost.

Disclaimer :The following post is written purely from experience, if you are going through a hard time and feel the need to do so, you should seek professional assistance from the reverent sources. I am not a doctor, counselor or therapist, if you choose to take my advise you do so at your own risk.  Before I get into this, I need to say that although I have acknowledged the king of this blog, in so much as I have asked permission to do this, I act alone in the following... The nature of what I am about to share with you, is not something that anyone else should bare the weight of, since this is my decision, based on my own convictions. I am sorry this sounds so dramatic, but anyone who knew the old me in person will know, drama and Hayley Esther kind of go hand in hand. I admit to this fully, and it is for the purpose of leaning into a language I have taught those that love and support me, to expect from me, that I now choose to make my exist in a dramatic fashion ...